Category : life

The Tooth Will Out

Last year, I developed one heck of a toothache. The pain had mostly subsided by the time I got myself in to see my dentist, so I thought “It must have just healed on its own,” because I can be hilariously optimistic and naive when it comes to my health. My dentist looked at the tooth, in the back of my lower jaw, and said “Yeah, you need to have a root canal.” My first root canal! How exciting! (I’m being very liberal in the use of “exciting”, especially considering my high anxiety around all things dental.) She gave me a referral to an endodontist and I made an appointment. The endodondist and his staff were incredibly nice, which helped keep me calm during the procedure. Which the endodontist wasn’t able to finish because it turned out my tooth was too far gone for a root canal. The little guy needed to be extracted. This did not make me happy. (more…)

7-08-2025 |

I Never Wished to Be Big

Every morning, I wake up wondering why anyone thought it would be a good idea to let me live alone and take care of myself and a cat on my own. And I wonder what I did the day before to make my body ache the way it does. Then I look in the mirror and I’m surprised to see an adult body there.

I never wished to be big. When I was a kid, adults seemed too big and smelly. They were angry and sad too often, yelling at each other and the kids and pets around them. They complained about their jobs and not having enough money. Why would anyone want that?

I never wished to be big, but it happened anyway, so I’m making the best of it, But it’s still a weird moment every morning.

6-26-2025 |

Life Without Molly

I often dream about TV shows. Sometimes it’s surreal episodes of a favorite show. Sometimes it’s a mash-up of two or three favorite shows. Every once in a while, it’s an original show. Like my dream about Life Without Molly. (more…)

3-21-2025 | 2

Nerds in the Wild

Setting: Milton’s Cafe in downtown Lawrence, KS. Lunch time. I’m reading a Warhammer Fantasy Roleplay book while eating scrambled eggs and turkey sausage.

WAITRESS: Is everything delicious?

ME: It’s great, thanks.

WAITRESS: Good! I’ll get you some more water and IS THAT A D&D BOOK?!

ME: Well, kind of. It’s actually the Warhammer RPG. It’s kind of a grubbier, funnier version of D&D fantasy.

WAITRESS: Oh! I’ve heard of it! This is what happens when nerds see game books out in the world.

WAITER, STANDING NEARBY: My younger brother introduced me to Warhammer 40K lore recently and I went down a deep rabbit hole watching videos on YouTube.

WAITRESS, TO WAITER: Have you seen the videos where people play D&D for 24 hours straight?

They walk away, talking about D&D actual play videos.

It’s wild how something that would have gotten me bullied when I was a teen now gets me in fun conversations with complete strangers.

(I originally posted this to Facebook in January, 2025.)

3-11-2025 |

My QPR part 2

I’ve been rewatching Twin Peaks (even when it’s floundering for direction in season two, it’s still great) and it got me thinking about high school sweethearts. I tried to think of anyone I dated in high school (there weren’t many) that I could imagine reconnecting with and dating now. And then I realized that I do have a high school sweetheart, someone I never lost touch with but have recently experienced a renewal of our old relationship. Except…it’s not a romantic relationship, and we like it that way. (more…)

3-07-2025 |

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