Brain Keeps Falling Down, Down, Down

Today is a bad ADHD day.

When I say it’s a bad ADHD day, I don’t mean I’ve been fidgeting with a pen while I tell fifteen overlapping stories in five minutes, constantly getting distracted by something in my peripheral vision. Truthfully, I like those days. I may not have much focus, but I have energy and interest to spare. Today is one of those days when my dopamine needle is fluttering over E and my executive and emotional regulation are about as regulated as big business under a Republican administration. Everything bores me, I can’t decide on anything, and when I try the usual ways I entertain myself, I just get frustrated and angry that I’m not having fun. Being bored when you have ADHD is like trying to run a marathon after fasting for a day. Or like trying to fly a jet with only one working engine? I’m not exactly sure how jets work and I have no interest in looking it up right now.

There are loads of tricks and coping mechanisms that people have come up with to help us live with our ADHD, but sometimes you just have to ride things out, be patient with yourself, and wait for better times.